purple Christmas lights dangling
off an early August porch
I never had any outright hallucinations in my younger psychedelic dabbling days, but I often figure this is because reality has always been fairly flexible to me, so likely according to somebody else’s standards, I had a lot of hallucinations… I just didn’t regard them as such. It always felt to me like I was seeing a more subtle reality, not obviously on the surface, but also not according to how we’re trained to identity the surface. Had a friend one time explaining to me about purple, and being trained to identify it, and how his shade of purple might be my shade of orange, but since we’re all trained to identify the same appearance of reality as “purple”, we all assume we see the same color, when in actuality there might be great fluctuation in that. I kinda figure that’s how reality is too - just the accepted system of identifying what’s around us. It sucks that the blurring of reality is not psychedelic based and about how there’s deeper universal layers to everything, but instead has allowed folks to have a more shallow, selfish view of the world as nothing but a space for them to do whatever they feel like, as whatever they feel like is somehow their “right”, but what affects anybody else is a “feeling”. I don’t know man, civilization feels extra raggedy lately.
I
got purple on my purple, burning purple confederate flags with purple stars on
purple bars, 69 stars on the new ol’ glory, lime green and purple stripes, as
the fuchsia stars swipes do glare. Wearing my crown made eternal redbud
blossoms, I drive a pink primered low rider Chevy pick-up truck along the edge
of the flat Earth, no guardrails anymore, because the world ended 100 miles
back. “A rich man goes to college, a poor man goes to work…” I bridged the
difference and done did both, first generation arts bachelor, thousandth
generation sad sack with dirt on my god. But I’m filling the yard with metallic
flowers and capturing poem spirits in bottles I found in the woods along the
river that the kayak-havers know about on the weekends, but not on a Monday
evening when it’s too hot to do shit but sit in the shade and hope the wind
blows hard enough to make the metallic flowers spin in the yard. “If you don’t
like the way I’m living, you just leave this long beard country boi alone…”